Chubby Vogue Diva #34

It’s funny how it still stings a little when one calls me FAT. I’ve heard that all my life and was nurtured and groomed to dress for my body, of which I’m grateful for.

This is my story…

My name is Phaello Matitoane but known as Phaello Rain Tshabalala on social media. – that’s another story for another day. Nonetheless, I was born in Pretoria and raised in a small awesome town called Welkom in the Free State, Thabong, next to Shopong tsa Kgale. Home.

My father is a business man and mother in sales but raised by my grandmother, the queen herself. Funny thing is she always used to tell me to wear a belt for my tummy or dress properly from a very young age, this being the stage I learned to always “breath in” in an effort to make my tummy appear smaller. So with her it didn’t bother me at all because I knew she was looking out for me…she knew, she knew how cruel people can be, how words can bring a person down.

I attended primary school at Welkom Islamic school. Like being fat wasn’t bad enough, I now was in a

Muslim school which uniform added 5kg extra with all the fabric. I made it through though and actually gained good friends whom are amazing people by the way….

And then there was high school… Boy oh Boy!!!

Now I was amongst all sorts of kids, it was difficult at first to fit in as I’ve always really been a loner, and didn’t think I’d  fit in anywhere. All I was, was that “white fat girl that stays at that big white house” haha pretty funny actually. It was difficult at first because I was laughed at a lot. If it’s not my ugly head it’s my weight or my overly pale skin. But again, life has a way of throwing things at you, I made it through all of that. I later decided to be freer, confident, that’s when I joint the school choir, netball and eventually was a Deputy Head RCL at the school. Since then I developed a sense of love for myself because happiness has no size really, it’s needed and you are responsible for it. No one else.

My advice….. It’s not easy to say you love your body especially when society describes beauty as the opposite of you. I’ve come to be at peace with my body and accepted it as it is.  Yes I still breath in and yes I wear my vest to keep everything in its place.

 If you are not HAPPY with yours then change it so that you become happy.

 Im happy. Are you?

 

 

 

 

Chubby Vogue Diva #30

Lebitso laka ke Matšhweng Seko mmago Selaelo le Mahlako (Sel-Mah)

The journey of comfort with my body has been a long and interesting one for me. I have always been classified as “chubby” since I was young. Even after losing 30KG and moved from a 42 to a 32, I still viewed myself as bigger than the average girl and found fault in my physique.

After being blessed with two beautiful souls and two major losses in my life, I came to realize that life is too short to be focused on things that do not make you happy and being negative. I came to the conclusion that, it is no-one’s responsibility to love this “shebang” of a woman or anyone’s responsibility to be comfortable or happy with this body, but ME… You only get one body after all and you need to take care of it. So I choose love and happiness not only for me and for my two girls.

Children do not do what you say but do what you do. For my girls or madonga a JAM (as I love calling them) to love themselves, be confident and proud I had to be that example for them.

Although I have been a gym member for years, and always participated in races and tried to be active it was after my light bulb moment that my heart followed me to the gym and all my fitness activities and renewed my love for it. Being at the gym and running has been my Nirvana: where I am at peace and EXTREMELY happy.

Finally accepting myself as I am and fully loving Matšhweng: has made me more adventurous and made me happier, content with myself, my life and enabled me to be the person I am truly meant to be. Every day for me is a new adventure and I strive to be the best person I could be and to live my purpose in life and the best Mother I could be to Sel-Mah (Madonga a JAM)

 

Chubby Vogue Diva #20

©Charmain Carrol Photography 076 1810009 (54 of 64)Nombulelo Ngqayizivelo Khumalo

28years, 3months, 3weeks (on the day of shoot).

I am a young lady with big dreams, so big that at times I stop for a moment and laugh so hard imagining the day my dreams spring into reality. I am a township kind of person with a twist of model-C up bringing (I guess I have the best of both worlds). Funny enough there was a time I believed deep down that I was white. All the people I associated with were generally white and I saw no difference between them and me. Reality only tapped in when school closed and I had to go home and then speak isiZulu… but now I’m glad that phase is over I know who I am and happy about it. I was born & bread in Durban Kwa-Mashu one of the friendliest townships. Well I don’t know what you have been told; then again we choose to believe what we want too.

Discipline, Love, Caring, Respect, Culture, Strong will, Determination, Self-love and Prayer; are all the ingredients that came together in creating and moulding the woman that I am today. Mama did a great job raising me (if I say so myself), she peacefully rests in heaven knowing she has raised a woman of magnitude, intellect and grace.

I am crazy about Arts especially Dramatic Arts. The script is my King, stage is my Thrown, and I will forever reign in the entertainment world. I am an actress. I act every day of my working life. I draw a very clearer line between my profession and my personal life. In my personal life I do not act I’m as real as they come.  I am a passionate and self-motivated Diva. My mind is my greatest possession. I sometimes trip over my thoughts as my mind builds castles over split seconds.

I just love life, holistically!

Genetically I come from a chubby family. So in my comfort zone, home, its normal to have extra curves. On the hand there is society who has found its own definition of normal and perfect body type and size. I Ngqayizivele has chosen to redefine NORMAL to COMFOTABLE!  A perfect body type and size is that which the owner is comfortable in. being big is beautiful love thy self but don’t be naïve about the health hazards involved. I just don’t believe that one should be living their lives proving to society how confident, happy and able you are big as you may be. The primary key is to just be comfortable in your own body and skin and the rest shall follow.

This photo shoot was the best thing I have ever done for myself. The focal point being on me was the highlight. This shoot made me capitalise and indulge on the beauty I possess but always look pass. I felt so beautiful Charmain brought out the A game in me. Thank you very to much Ms Carrol. her talent was  contagious. I felt like a super model. Please don’t quote me but I see a career merging from this successful shoot. Every woman deserves this kind of experience it did so much for my Mojo

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Images Taken at Kwamashu G-section, Durban

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Chubby Vogue Diva #18

©Charmain Carrol Photography 076 1810009 (38 of 70)My name is Nosisa Makubalo mostly known as Nhati.

I’m 38 years old, born and bred in Port Elizabeth in the Eastern Cape. But now based in Johannesburg. I am a choral singer, love African jazz and classic music.

I have never  been thin since I was a child and yes people use to make fun of me laughing at me calling me names, but that never changed the way I was born. I have always been big, bold and a big body. I have tried so many things from injections to pills and unfortunately they never worked, and I was left with one thing loving myself the way I am.

I cannot not satisfy the world because of what they think of me.I decided not to please anyone just to love and have confidence in my own skin,  because I don’t think there is anything that a skinny person can do that I can’t do…..(yes anything if you know what I’m talking about #laughing#)…..

I am a phenomenal, confident and bold woman that loves the way she looks and proud of her self. I will never allow anyone to discriminate me.

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Working with Carrol was super amazing,  I never thought it was going to be that easy, and let me thank you Carrol  for giving us a platform where we can say we BIG, BOLD unique human beings and we need just the community to appreciate and respect us cause we are here to stay and we not going anywhere….

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Images taken at Rosettenville Johannesburg

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To us BIG mamas let us embrace and love how we look, being chubby is not a crime…. Chubby Divas

Chubby Vogue Diva #15

©Charmain Carrol Photography 076 1810009 (5 of 33)My name is Sindisiwe Khuzwayo also known as “Mapuku”.

I am a Colourful 26 year old.

©Charmain Carrol Photography 076 1810009 (29 of 33)I was born bread and buttered in Kwamashu, Durban.

I feel no shame in saying this. I am not fishing for compliments; I am not putting myself down. It is simply a statement of fact – I am Chubby, I am Beautiful and I Love myself the way I am.

It has actually taken me a while to accept my body because I was slim and gained weight after I had my beautiful baby boy. I had people telling me that I looked much better when I was slim. Others would tell me that I have a double chin and you could hardly see my neck. My mother would say to me “my child you don’t look your age anymore because of your weight, you need to do something”and it worried me.

The list is endless but it didn’t stop me from loving me unconditionally, it didn’t stop me from being a person who is positive about every aspect of life. I like delicious food, I like to talk, I like to read, I love people, I like to laugh so much that I cry, I love romantic movies, I love to listen. I like to do thought experiment when I can’t sleep in the middle of the night. I cry a lot, I cry when I’m happy, I cry when I’m sad, I cry when someone is going through a rough time.

My photo shoot made me feel so good; it made me appreciate myself even more I can say with pride that I Sindi Khuzwayo have “self love” and nobody can take that away from me.

“If you want to be loved my others, you need to love and appreciate yourself first”

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Images taken at: Kwamashu F- section in Durban – KZN

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Chubby Vogue Divas #13

My name is Gugu Zulu

I am a 31yr old female Police officer specialising as a Criminalistic Expert, working in Secunda.

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An aspiring plus size model and most importantly a mother of a beautiful daughter,sounds hectic right?? I’m a woman and women multi task as they say, its a true fact.

When I’m on Police Officer mode my job is 2 investigate crime scenes , collect evidence and link perpetrators to the scene. I love my job because I get to bring closure to those who’ve lost loved ones or their valuables by linking suspects to the crime scene with fingerprints, DNA or any other trace found at the scene. I am behind the camera taking photographs of scenes that most of the people would not even be able to look at, bt I do it with passion. People say Wow she’s brave, truth is in a male dominated field as a woman you need to step it up to in order to get the same respect.  I have been with the SAPS  for almost 10 years and I’ve earned my stripes.

Then there’s mommy mode, a fun, loving bt still strict me. That is where I’m just relaxed and I’m just me. I sing, dance just act crazy with my lil girl but at the same time I’m able to say do your chores, homework and you grounded. There’s no handbook that you can refer you to parenting just do your best and hope it’s good enough. That’s just me .

When I’m on model mode I get to be in front of the camera, get be  laid back and just have  a blast. I get to show the feminine and confident side of Gugu, and I love it.

Working with Charmain was just amazing, not only is she a great photographer but an inspiration as a mother and to plus size women.

Most plus size women say they lack confidence because of how people treat them. But truth be told is its all about yourself, you cannot allow someone’s opinion about you define you. Once you get that right you’ll be happy and on the right track. When I’m out there jogging I know I’m Sexy as hell, I don’t do it to be skinny but to be healthy.

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Photographs taken in Park Town Johannesburg…

Clothing: Models own clothes